random thoughts

walking in the crowd, seeing so many unknown faces makes me realize, that they all have stories, they all have struggles, and they all have their happiness unique to them. and to be better than all of them, more famous than all of them, more rememberable than all of them, my story needs to be different, and better than all of them combined. walking in the crowd makes me realize that i am truly alone in this universe. and walking in the crowd makes me realize that no one cares about you as much you think they are. i watched vir das's knox university speech yesterday about being stupid, and doing stupid things. and i realized that people are often held back because of "shame". maybe we should all do the stupid thing. and that's a decision to be made by you. we all have around 60-70 years in our tanks. and if we don't make those stupid decisions right now, we might regret it later. and we might regret the stupid decision as well, but at the end you atleast tried. be rememberable. i do weird stuff around my friends, so that when they are not with me, and with some other guy, they think "that guy was something else".

i don't know what you've faced in your childhood, but you are not the darkness you faced, you are the light that came through. no one has a good childhood, remember that. it's up to you, to settle on the fact that you weren't raised right, or just change everything.

i have been having thoughts about why i am sad? but honestly, i am not sad, i just think, about things. i spend my time thinking about the little things which people overlook. i look up and smile whenever i see the sky. i consider nature beautiful, and if you consider nature beautiful, you are a part of it as well.

i was raised good, i have an amazing mom, an amazing dad, a really good brother. we had our own struggles in the family, we have our arguments. but after 2-3 days, everyone forgets everything, and sits together. i was raised with good values, to help others, to smile whenever you greet someone, to be kind. i was taught to be competitive as well, to not tell my plans to others, to be one step ahead of everyone, i picked up less of the competitive part i think. but that is what life is, at the end, we overestimate what we can do in a day, and underestimate what we can do in a year.

these are just some random thoughts that were coming to my mind, i just turned 18 so woo-hoo ig. but this is where the real adventure starts. i am finally out in the world, let's change ourselves, become better, be kind and be rememberable.